Well, I have no idea what is about to come out of my fingers. I just feel the need to write. This seems like as good a place as any. Why are human beings so hard to get along with? How can friendships and relationships turn into ugly things laced with lies and deceit so easily? It would be so nice if once we reached adulthood we were rendered incapable of all negativity... lies, hatred, betrayal. I think how beautiful our world would be, how much happier the children we brought into this world would be. If you know me you know kids are my weakness. I think that stems from having an unhealthy childhood myself. I wish I could take away all the pain, fear and frustration of children all over the world. I feel so strongly for even my friend's children as they experience hardships at much too young an age. When are parents going to realize they are not the priority? Once you have committed your body to bringing a child into the world your identity becomes null and void. Whether you realize it or not, you are not John and Jessica Smith anymore you are Joe or Moe's mom and dad. I'm not talking about creating some worship the children cult; I'm just talking about love. When did people cease to love their children? As much as Johnathan and I disagree on some topics and get on each other's nerves we always agree on one thing: Charlie is priority. He did not ask to be brought into this world. He had no choice in who his parents would be. I think Johnathan and I do have some advantages; we've never been in love with each other... it certainly helps us be more objective. There are no feelings of hurt, jealousy, territorialism, that I've seen displayed in so many relationships and marriages that haven't worked out. So, I guess what I don't understand is these people who supposedly loved each other enough to decide to bring children into the world and then things don't go as planned... why they can't overcome their own selfishness for the better of the children. I'm making some pretty big blanket statements/observations and we all know there are fucked up people in the world and fucked up situations that dont necessarily apply to the scenario I've listed but for those that do... I have no sympathy for these people, only for the children.